Fascinating Fuzz

My head hair regrowth is beginning! It's like a light halo around my head. Not enough to insulate well at all, but enough to notice and want to shout out to the world: look at me - my hair is growing!

See the fuzz? Forget the dark hairs you see.
That's some of my old hair that's being stubborn.
It falls out as the new growth pushes it out.
It also comes out when I pull it out, rub my head, or 3M roller my scalp.

An extremely close view of my scalp and the wild, wirey fuzz.
Proud to own my fuzz.

Home Sweet Home

Just had to let you all know that we are rejoicing because Laura got to come home yesterday. She began eating again and was able to drop the morphine and move on to oral painkillers. We packed her up and scooted her (gently) into the car on a day that was cold to say the least. Because of the winter storm, they had no power, so we all "nested" at my house, and Laura amazed us with her energy level throughout the rest of the day. Fortunately, power was returned and Joshua and Laura were able to return to their own home today -- ready to continue the healing and recovery process. Please continue your thoughts and prayers as Laura heals and becomes stronger in Phase 2 of her journey.

Slowly but Surely

A quick update on Laura's progress: Joshua spent the night with Laura in the hospital and reported that they had a sleepless night mostly because of Laura's nausea, so this factor has slowed her recovery. Through great effort she finally kept down a small bit of food and some of her bodily functions are returning -yea! Her pretty blue eyes are much more alert and she is sharing her sweet nature with the hospital staff.
When both surgeons visited Laura today, they were confident that the procedures were successful and that a positive pathology report is expected (by Thursday or Friday). We continue to pray that the report will confirm that there are NO live cancer cells !
The winter storm that rolled into Denver last night ended up much less severe than was forecast, so we have been able to get to the hospital easily. However, Laura & Joshua lost electricity late this afternoon so it is probably a good thing that Laura isn't quite ready to go home. But she has eaten again, and is off the morphine, so things are looking up ! Tomorrow Laura will probably get to go home !

Update from the hospital!

We just received wonderful news that Laura is now in recovery. Both the general and plastic surgeon's said everything went well. She will be in recovery for a couple of hours before we can see her. The expanders are in place and Laura was given 150 cc's of saline to get the stretching started. We are anxiously awaiting to see her early this evening amd hoping that the anesthethia does not cause too much nausea. Big sighs of relief and thank you to all of you who have been praying for us today.

Letting Go

The magical time has arrived. We're soon heading to the hospital. Joshua and/or my parents will be posting blog updates on how I'm doing post-surgery. Any comments you leave will get to me. I'll hop back online when I feel up to it.

Much like the sparklers in this picture,
my breasts will soon be things of the past.

Next time you see me, it'll be version 1.2 of Laura; one step on the way of becoming v2.0. Also, Phase 2 of Operation Kick the Crap out of Cancer will be over! (At least that's how I'm thinking of it.)

This transition is a tough one to wrap my head around; I imagine I'll be working through these feelings for some time to come. My breasts have mainly, until recently, been just another appendage on my body. Since June, I've had time to think about them, notice them, recognize changes in them, celebrate them, and say goodbye to them. I would love to keep them...if they weren't trying to kill me. Bad boobies! <sigh> It's come down to having to let them go.

I am ready for today. I am confident in my general surgeon's abilities. I am confident in my plastic surgeon's abilities. I know the anesthesiologist is well-versed in administering drugs to patients like me. I know there are many prayers being said for this surgery. I have the strength. Everything will work out as it should.

The Bye-bye Boobies Gathering

Yes, I really had a get-together to celebrate and say goodbye to my boobies. It was small, fairly low-key, and a positive experience. Here's a recap of that special night:

The color theme was black and pink. Everyone obliged - fantastically, in fact!

Chana, Sarah, me, and Denise.

Me & mom.

Even the socks were rockin' the night's colors.

We enjoyed great wine, good food, and fantastic conversations. (No recap of conversations, for fear of getting us all in trouble.)

Unbeknownst to me, there was a *big* surprise awaiting... A Caucasian boobie bust piñata. What a fantastic idea! We had fun with it and played around with it a bit (oh c'mon - you know what I mean).

Then it was time to take out our aggression towards breast cancer by doing some damage to the piñata. Denise was ready for the action - baseball bat and all.

Under the cloak of night, we strung up the piñata and sounded an air horn a few times. Then we went to town on those boobies. They didn't last long.

There were lots of goodies inside that flew everywhere! Pink and black socks, positive message erasers, a boobie basketball game, pink bead necklaces, silly string, dazzling rings and bracelets, and some unmentionables.

The morning after - the piñata aftermath.

They've got to go.

Thank you, ladies, for such a fun evening. I enjoyed the food, piñata festivities, and conversations...but most of all, your friendship and support.

Hanging On

Although my leg hair is (slowly) growing again, I've been losing more hair elsewhere. And I've been told to expect to lose every last remaining one one in the coming weeks. But I'm okay with that. Really. There are worse things than no hair! :)

So here are some close-up pictures of what my eyebrows and eyelashes look like this week. Click on the pictures if you'd like to see them enlarged.

I've got four eyelashes hanging on to the bottom.
But who's counting?

Thank goodness for eyebrow pencils.
And thank goodness for the ones hanging on -
they give me a template to work with.

The other eyebrow/eyelashes.

Gettin' pretty bare.
Some people wanna stare.
'Cause I don't have much hair.
And it's not because of Nair.
But I don't care.
In my future, it'll all be there.

Top 10: Why Chemotherapy is Great

Now that chemo is over, it's time to put together a "Top Ten" list! I hope to make one for each "phase" of this journey, because there really are some laughable if not just downright positive things to this experience.

1. Mandatory downtime during treatments (for me, this was a good thing).
2. Lose some weight. (I realize this depends on your particular regimen. During mine, I lost a few pounds. I attribute part of it to chemo and part to a strict alkaline diet.)
3. A free pass to do all those "nice" things you've wanted to do before but didn't allow yourself to: acupuncture, massage, wearing crazy wigs, etc.
4. Save money: no hair products or accessories.
5. No time spent shaving!!! Armpits, swimsuit line, and legs. No time spent plucking "grandma" hairs, lip hairs, etc.
6. Head rubs. :)
7. Go see [cancer] movie premieres and you get seated before everyone else.
8. How many other people get a rad, bionic port, eh?
9. The ever-nagging question about "what does my head look like under all that hair" is finally answered!
10. People come out of the woodwork to tell you and show you they care for you.

Opportunity for Locals (who have never had cancer)

Please contribute to this study if you're able.     

-Laura.

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CANCER PREVENTION STUDY-3 (CPS-3):

Volunteer today for a cancer-free tomorrow

The American Cancer Society is working on one of its biggest research projects ever – a ground-breaking study that will have an enormous impact on our ability to prevent cancer and create more birthdays – and we need your help.

We are inviting men and women between the ages of 30 and 65 years who have never had cancer to join the American Cancer Society's Cancer Prevention Study-3 (or CPS-3). The ultimate goal of this historic research study is to enroll at least 300,000 adults from various racial/ethnic backgrounds from across the United States. CPS-3 will help us better understand what causes cancer and how to prevent it, so we can save lives and create a world with less cancer and more birthdays.

Participation is easy!

• Prior to your appointment you will receive instructions on how to complete your first, most comprehensive survey online. This survey will take approximately 45 minutes to complete.

Your in-person enrollment will take approximately 20-30 minutes and will involve: 

• Completing a second, brief survey 
• Signing a consent form 
• Providing a waist circumference measurement 
• Providing a small blood sample (similar to a doctor's visit)

Enrollment opportunities are available from November 8-19, 2011 at the following 7 Quest Diagnostics locations in metro Denver with appointments at various times:

• 695 S. Broadway, Denver, CO 80209
• 1411 S. Potomac St. #290, Aurora, CO 80012
• 6179 S. Balsam Way #240, Littleton, CO 80123
• 7700 W Virginia Ave. Unit C, Lakewood, CO 80226
• 3250 E 104th Ave., Thornton, CO 80233
• 8671 S. Quebec St. #240, Littleton, CO 80130
• 3555 Lutheran Parkway #130, Wheat Ridge, CO 80033

Following enrollment, you will receive mailed surveys at home every few years to update your information. You will also receive annual study newsletters to update you on research results.

Whether or not you are able to enroll or whether you have previously enrolled at a local Relay For Life event, please forward this blog post/URL to friends, coworkers, and family members in your community and encourage them to fight back against cancer by enrolling in CPS-3.

This is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity to be a part of the research that may change the course of cancer forever. Together, we have the power to save countless lives and create a world with less cancer and more birthdays!

For more information about CPS-3, please visit www.cancer.org/cps3, email cps3@cancer.org or call toll-free 1-888-604-5888.

TO SCHEDULE YOUR APPOINTMENT, GO TO:
http://www.cps3denver.com.

Alpa Patel, PhD, Principal Investigator, CPS-3, American Cancer Society, Atlanta, GA 

Karen Hill, Mountain Region Vice President, American Cancer Society, Denver, CO

Acupuncture

The center's entryway floor.

Acupuncture is interesting to me. And I believe it's been beneficial to me as a complement to my Western medicine treatments. It hasn't hurt me in any way, that's for sure. Paul is my acupuncturist and I hope to remember to get a picture of him sometime in the future. Chemo brain has made getting a picture of him all the more elusive. For now, here are a few pictures I took during a visit in August to show folks what I've experienced.

My appointments begin with a check-in of sorts. I talk to Paul about troublesome symptoms I'm experiencing and he checks my pulse and my tongue. (The main symptoms I found troublesome during chemotherapy were nausea, tinnitus (ears ringing), headache, bone paint, joint pain, and fatigue.) Then I hopped up on the table and got stuck! Once all the needles/pins/clips are in, Paul dims the lights and leaves the room. My job was to breathe in and out, relax, and try not to let too many stray thoughts come charging into my brain for the next 45 minutes. Easier said than done!

A needle in my forehead.
I *think* this is the brain on/off switch location.
It's nice when it's off!

Contrary to most of the needles folks are familiar with, acupuncture needles are not hollow. I played with one before I got stuck for the first time, just to see what I was getting into. They are so thin that they are flexible.  Having acupuncture needles inserted does not hurt; I've only had two needles placements that made me feel a twinge as they went in. A few minutes later, everything feels normal or better than normal.

Two needles in my foot.

I'm comfortable while on the table. A bolster is placed under my knees, rolled-up towels are placed under my wrists (which usually have needles in them, too), and a heat lamp can be used, too.

An infrared heat lamp.
Usually aimed at my cold feet.