October 24, 2012

A Reminder

Everyone knows what's being plastered everywhere this month: pink. And you all know why. 'Nuff said. 

Like most people, I tend to be attracted to fun, enjoyable things and shy away from painful stuff. I also like smatterings of cheeky, irreverent stuff too. The video below is a lighthearted (and good looking!) take on breast health. Please watch it (< 2.5 minutes). You can choose to take it one step further and download The Man Reminder app (available on iPhone and Andriod). But really - the best action you can take is to give your breasts some TLC...regularly.



For those of you (female and male) that still have their originals, puh-lease touch, look, and check your boobies! Several times this month, I've ran into several women in the medical field that admit not doing their breast self exams regularly. Why aren't we all more mindful about our own health? Wouldn't it be great to really know your body - so much so that at the first hint of something being "off," you'd recognize it? Being that familiar with your (or your loved one's) boobies can really make a difference, medically speaking.

October 19, 2012

11 week follow-up

Eleven weeks ago, I had my expanders taken out and my implants put in. I also opted to have my chest port taken out during the surgery. Here's what's going on now:

Yesterday's follow up went really well with my plastic surgeon.

I've healed really well! I am cleared to fly, swim (YAY!), and do pretty much anything without physical restrictions. With the exception of swinging from trees, I can pretty much do anything I'm capable of...while watching for arm/trunk swelling on my radiated (right) side.

I should check my breasts regularly for discoloration, discharge, or any redness/swelling (esp. on radiated side). Being familiar with them - by doing daily massages, stretches, and visual checks - will serve me well because I'll be able to tell if something is awry. After all, it pays to be familiar with your bits and pieces.

PSA: Ladies, have you given yourselves a breast check lately? Please do so! 

The bulk of the appointment (to my surprise) revolved around revision surgery and nipple reconstruction surgery. I'm not wanting to jump into either of those surgeries. First, I want to recover and feel great physically before signing on for more 'fun'.

In other Earth-shattering news, am finding that the more I touch all over my chest and my right underarm/torso/arm sensitive areas, the less they "zing" when touched. Pretty cool. It seemed to help me recover well last time; of course, it also might just be a time thing. But I don't think so! I just might be onto something here.   :)

October 15, 2012

The Deep Blue

A sunset in Littleton.
The active job of medically "fighting" cancer is over. It's recovery time. Time to gradually build back my strength and to maintain exercise, nutrition, and other health factors in my life.

What an interesting place to be. I've been through the "cancer machine" and now have emerged from the machine a changed person in several ways. Most obviously physically--but mentally, too. What a trip it is to be diagnosed with cancer. It's been an adventure indeed and odd to have been, in some ways, fighting against my own body. After all, my body's errant cells refused to act normally and took their bad behavior as far and as quickly as they could.

Right now, there's a lot going on 'upstairs.' I'm ruminating on what has happened in the last ~2 years... looking at life through changed (aware? experienced?) eyes... wondering what it's going to be like to let go of my latest full-time job: understanding the complexities of cancer... thinking about what I want my life to be like and about... learning... It's deep stuff, these thoughts. Most thoughts are rational; some are not. They ebb and flow. Some thoughts are light in weight and color. Others are deep blue, heavy, and make me feel like I'm sinking.

I've been collecting quotes of various types throughout my life. Throughout this journey, I've found some that speak loudly to me in one way or the other. Here are some that are helping me through some of the deep blue thoughts:

  • Why is it that we're so scared to live and yet so afraid to die?
  • Try to explore and indulge in the feelings for no more than three days, and then move on. 
  • Don't delay the happy.
  • Promote what you love.
  • You only live once but if you do it right, once is enough.  ~Mae West
  • I love to see a young girl go out and grab the world by the lapels. Life's a bitch. You've got to go out and kick ass.  ~Maya Angelou

In June 2011, getting to this time period (post-surgery, radiation, chemo, etc.) seemed SO far away. I wondered: Do I have what it takes to get through all of what is in front of me? Will I see my next birthday? Will I see my 40th? Why did this happen to me? Will I ever look or feel "normal" again? When will I regain my physical strength? There were/are so many questions, doubts, and mind-bending thoughts back then. Some till exist today; I'd be lying if I said they were all gone.

And yet, here I am.

Emerging during a glorious time of year and doing my best to to take life one day at a time.

October 8, 2012

An Ode to Autumn



How beautifully leaves grow old. 
How full of light and color are their last days.
-John Burroughs, naturalist

October 1, 2012

Sound Healing

Anyone ever heard of sound healing? I hadn't until recently.

Sound healing uses vibrational sound to help reduce stress, alter consciousness and create a deep sense of peace, well being and better health. (from http://www.soundenergyhealing.com/pages/aboutSoundEnergy.html)

Ann, with some of her singing bowls.
Enter Ann, my massage therapist. She's always on the lookout for new therapies that will benefit her clients. One type of client demographic she'd like to be able to include are individuals that are touch sensitive. For example: people with PTSD, fibromyalgia, going through chemo, etc. and are sensitive to touch.

She's educated herself about sound healing and explained its basic principles to me. Interesting stuff! Here's some Q&A she shared with me that I found helpful in understanding the principles of sound healing and how it works.

The Science of Sound
Brainwaves are the electrical patterns emitted by the brain, and, as such, they respond to frequencies. These waves change frequency due to the neural activity in the brain. Sound Therapy can affect that activity by applying specific frequencies using various instruments. When we present rhythm, beats, tones, and pulses to the brain, it begins to mimic them. The process is called entrainment. In effect, the sound instruments ‘speak’ to the brain in its own language; the language of frequencies. Brainwave frequencies determine what state we are in at any given moment.

When clients turn their attention to the sounds created in the sessions, the brain-chatter turns off and a deep peace overtakes them. We can use sound therapy to achieve specific goals, ie: relaxation, learning, uplifting, energizing and so on.

How do the vibrations from the singing bowls help in the healing process disease?
1. Restoring the normal vibratory frequencies of the diseased, out-of-harmony parts of the body. Since all matter is energy vibrating at different rates, by altering the rate of vibration we can change the structure of matter.
2. Sound from the bowls entrain the brain to move into the deeper Alpha and Theta brain wave frequencies that induce deep meditative and peaceful states, clarity of mind, and intuition.
3. When placed directly on the body the sound vibrations are transmitted into our blood, organs, tissues, and cellular memory through the 80% water in our system.
4. The sound vibrations impact our nervous system, engaging our relaxation reflex and inhibiting the stress or pain response. It reduces brain wave activity, slows the respiratory and heart rate creating 'Cardio-Respiratory Synchronicity'—the perfect condition to bring the body back into alignment.
5. Sound induces trance states of consciousness conducive to healing. Their sound synchronizes sentient brain waves and creates a therapeutic effect upon the mind/body realization. They stop one's internal dialog, the 'Monkey Mind.' The individual is transported into a space of tranquility and balance.
6. The ensuing sympathetic resonance between brain and bowls reawakens the intrinsic blissful self in us. The healing process is initiated by entraining our brainwaves and creating sympathetic resonance with the perfect vibrations of the bowls.
7. Positive thinking can strengthen your immune system and change your life. The combination of the sound vibration of the bowls with positive visualization and affirmations will greatly enhance the healing experience.

More about Ann's Sound Sessions
Ann uses a variety of instruments during her sound healing sessions.
-tibetan bowls
-tuning forks
-crystal bowls
-rin gongs
-tingshaws
-temple bells
-gongs

After a healing session last week, I experienced a profound difference in my mental state. Before the appointment, I was zipping here and there, trying to juggle errands, remember what to do, etc. I was a bit frantic and frazzled - a common status for my brain the past few weeks. It was as if the sound waves and my brain patterns wrestled for a while at the beginning of the session, but the singing bowls won in the end. They calmed down all my mind chatter and I felt SO MUCH MORE at peace!  It was wonderful and brought me back to a place I hadn't been in a while.

Partly based on my peaceful mind experience after the sound session, I'm saying "Yes!" to going to a 1.5 hour gong bath this weekend with Ann. Hope to experience some good vibrations during and after Richard Rudis' gong bath.


Ann Martin, CMT
Transforming Body, Psyche & Soul
303-378-6250